day 3 or 4 of no smoking

Wow its been an adventure so far. I mean its very amazing at how much will power I seem to have. More than I thought I would. My bf and I were just talking on the phone about our not smoking thing. And he was saying how I was making excuses of how I wouldnt be able to do it. I knew I was feeling weak about even thinking about quitting. And I have now gone days with out a smoke or even a smoking aid of any kind. I am craving one right now but I dont want to smoke because I am trying to be strong.

I have been going for lots of walks to distract myself from having a smoke. I walked around westwood lake tonight with one of my friends and it was awesome. My friend was like here , and he handed me one of his smokes and he said just hold on to it. And strangely it did help. I told that to my bf and he said yeah its about breaking the habit of the addiction too.

I might end up having one of the smoking aid losenges which would sooth my craving but I am trying to resist.

I loved going to the 7/11 after the big walk around the lake and having a slurpee. mmm so refreshing and bonus I found a movie for sale it looked nice and girly yay now I have something cool to watch tomorrow.

today

I have really enjoyed being on my day off. I have to work tomorrow but thats ok. Just tomorrow then I have the weekend off so life is great. I went and hung out with my friend Sherry and we had a lovely visit. She is such a calming person and we have wonderful talks. She has wonderful decorations in her place. I was talking to her about getting some big red velvet curtains for the living room which I think would look so pretty.

She and her husband make wine so I get to taste their latest batches when I go there so its very interesting to see what they will have. I got to taste blackberry wine very yummy.

I am listening to the music Florence + the machine right now. The song girl with one eye. Its such a good song She has a powerful voice.

thisearly mornin

This early morning i have become very tired.
I did finally start working at Tim Hortons and things are good. And I have moved out of my dads now which has made life way more happy and peaceful for me. I have a wonderful bf who is away right now for the military and he comes back at the end of the summer. I look forward to it very much. It had been a chalenge having my hunney away and renos are being done downstairs and so many other things are happenin. I get to talk to him every night mostly. Except when he is in the field doing stuff in the bush then we dont talk unil he is back at the base.
I am trying to quit smoking and man is it ever hard. I went for a really long walk today and it did help. I still havent had a smoke so I am doing pretty good I would say. But i can feel the body craving. I do really want one but there is nothing I can do about it right now. I did get nicorette losenges which i will take tomorrow so that i dont have a smoke. I dont want to have one before bed though. I will be sleeping soon.